Immer noch keine Entwicklung.

I don't feel so good...

This month has not been good on me.. actually it just started to go downhill last week, I thought it's going to stop and this Monday is going to be a new beginning but it's just going further south. My dudes, how to keep hanging on? I just want to wake up and for this nightmare to be over. It kinda hurts to pretend that you're fine when you're not...like when you're smiling and your cheeks are frozen in place.

Warum werde ich wie scheiße behandelt?
Ich verstehe das nicht.

Tolerance

People have such firm opinions.
Sometimes they even want to change your opinion to match theirs.
Why can't they be tolerant or more understanding instead of undermining someone else's idea?
I guess, I did have a point in my life where people's words drastically influenced my day to day.
Right now, I feel that I am a little bit better at coping with insults.
I guess, for me... I learned that not everyone is going to like you.
And that's ok.
If someone has a different opinion.
That's ok.
People sometimes do bad things.
Stay levelled
Be more understanding.
 

When your job is not secure

I haven't been feeling well again.

Something happened at work...

And ... I just don't feel appreciated enough.

There are new changes.

And I feel like the rug is getting pulled underneath my feet.

It sucks when you feel like your work situation is not secure.

Like you could end up on the street the next day.

I wish happiness could exist at work.

After all these years, I still find it difficult to be happy.

I can't relate when they say, "work does not define you"... because I feel like it does.

It never stops...

As we get older, we all become good at pretending. Can't even remember when I stopped being a kid and graduated. Life passes by so fast.

Failures occur everyday and I still can't learn to shut off my brain. 

"It's ok to make mistakes."

"Nobody is perfect-"

"Don't be too hard on yourself."

Those are advices I like to give people who beat themselves up.

But I never really apply those things to myself.

Sometimes a day is hard.

Existing is hard. 

Breathing is heavy.

But I am not the only person in the world who feels like this. 

It's ok not to be happy everyday.

Sun sets, sun rises even if we are sad.

Let's pretend it's another great day to exist today. 

 

This is a day in the life of Oikawa Toru and Iwaizumi Hajime.

 

Oikawa and Iwaizumi decided to eat some ramen at their favorite place after the matsuri.  

 

 

Oikawa: "Let's take a picture."

 

 

 

Oikawa: "I think I'll take one alone. Don't want to ruin the picture."

 

 

Oikawa: Joking!

 

 

Oikawa: "Common. You can do it, too!"

 

 

Iwaizumi is still pissed.

 

 

 

Oh well.

 

 

The next day.

 

 

 

I got into nendoroids three years ago. I haven't really posted here because of a lot of lame adult excuses. Mostly because I was a lazy ass bitch. This is my "unprofessional nendoroid photography hobby" hashtag: Good Smile Company owns my money. I just got really depressed today and needed some distraction so I decided to play a bit. Me, an almost 30 year old lady. I could've gone out but I don't have money due to this hobby.