I don't feel so good...

This month has not been good on me.. actually it just started to go downhill last week, I thought it's going to stop and this Monday is going to be a new beginning but it's just going further south. My dudes, how to keep hanging on? I just want to wake up and for this nightmare to be over. It kinda hurts to pretend that you're fine when you're not...like when you're smiling and your cheeks are frozen in place.